Now that I am nearing 30 and am dearly in love with Christ, He is taking down my walls brick by brick. Although some days I must admit, I’m trying to wrestle those bricks out of His hands and back onto my wall. Wanting to be accepted by others is a deep seated desire of friendship, a sense of normal, and belonging. I can’t help but ache when a sister in Christ gives me the cold shoulder or gossips about my past behind my back. Though I’ve handled these situations Biblically before, the result is the same, I have not gained what my heart wants most, acceptance.
It wasn’t until this morning when I was emailing a close friend and confidant about the situation when God gently reminded me of five things:
- When I accepted Jesus as my savior, I lost my citizenship status of this world.
- Not every person I meet in my life time is going to like me.
- I am not to gain favor with man (or every woman for that matter) but strive to be like Jesus.
- I am to seek God’s face and no one else’s.
- The only acceptance or approval I should EVER seek is Christ.
If you have wounds like I do and long for acceptance, ask Jesus to heal your heart and pick up the book Bondage Breaker by Neil T. Anderson, and meditate on Ephesians 3:16-21.