Do you really trust in God? I questioned my trust and sanity level throughout this last year. I struggled to understand what God was doing in my life and why He allowed certain things to take place. Many of you who have been following my blog know that I miscarried baby Alexandria last fall. Struggle didn’t even come close to explaining my heart.
I’ve always stated and still say, “God is in charge of my uterus.” With that being said, I was overwhelmed and overjoyed at the unexpected blessing of Alex. But the day that I called my Dad to tell him what happened, I was in shock; yet his words resonated in my spirit as if God was asking me if I would trust Him with what He was doing.
“Hey Old-Wise-Young-One” (My nickname, really!)
“Dad, I have some news and it’s not going to be easy to say.”
“Heather, before you say anything, I wanted to tell you my dream last night, it was so very real. It was as if God parted the heavens to let me see my mom. She was playing at the piano and a cute, blond, little girl was playing next to her. The Angels were rejoicing at her arrival, like she had just gotten there. Mom called her Alli. And she called her great grandma.”
There was a pause as I began to sob, even though he lived 2000 miles away, my Daddy already knew.
“Daddy, she’s gone and it hurts so very much. I don’t understand.”
My dad went on to tell me to trust and not doubt God’s plans. He felt that there was something bigger planned for me and this would have to be my sacrifice for now. He also knew that something wasn’t right with Alex’s body, so she went home with Jesus. I would give anything to have Alex with us, yet I cannot deny His plan for me.
Okay, I promise I’m getting to my point and you can smile instead of tearing up with me. Last night, after months of hard work, my friends Leslie, Jen, I were able to realize our vision. It’s beginning to take on the facets of life we want for it. We received a check for $10,000 for Her View From Home through a rural business competition at UNK, out of 19 businesses, we placed first. Her View is about connecting women to what she loves most. It’s about inspiring the core of every woman, to be a better wife and mother, to share the good life of Nebraska.
Alex would have been born on April 10th and Her View is birthing on April 12th. coincidence? I think not.
Maybe you’re still on the fence about God, or maybe your faith runs as deeply in your heart, as it does mine. Had I been pregnant with Alex, Her View would not have been conceived. Had I been pregnant, my book Mama Needs A Time-Out wouldn’t be scheduled to release in May. Had I been pregnant, I wouldn’t have been able to serve all my MOPS moms (www.MOPS.org) that I so passionately care about.
Life isn’t about the circumstances, the joy, or the heartache. It’s a test of time, it’s about our willingness to say, “Yes, God I trust You. I don’t understand, I hurt–but I will trust you.” Last night as I held the check for $10,000 and hugged my friends, I heard God whisper over and over: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29: 11- 13
And here’s a sneak peek of what we will be offering, beginning April 12th: Her View From Home Commercial .