I’m writing to tell you how proud I am of you, of the work you are allowing Christ to accomplish in and through you. I think what I am most proud of is watching you use your brokenness. God in His infinite wisdom leads us into seasons of life that serve to break us. Most will find the break terribly uncomfortable and do a pot-shot patch job of the break, moving through the season as quickly as possible. Those that do, I think, miss God’s real best and biggest blessings. I’ve watched you allow Him to break you open wide and use that to pour out of your brokenness mercy, grace, hope and love. As someone who is moving from a pot-shot patch job to a “God break me open wider for the benefit of others” place in my own life, I admire you, and don’t envy your public stage. God knew your character could handle it. Thank you for your obedience to Him and your capability to stay humble and to push past criticism. Your doing so has allowed God to continue to use you to bless and inspire women. I am among that crowd. Please know I am behind the curtain praying for you and champion in you on. I pray God is bringing the same kind of restorative hope to your soul that He brings to others through you.
The email so unexpected but SO God. Tears stung my eyes as I read it again and the prayer I prayed to God about being all in, surrendered–asking to be set apart for his purpose flooded my mind.
You see, when you choose to life a life of holiness, God sets us apart. He takes us from the fields where we’ve planted ourselves and unearths us. Wanting to the very best of our live’s he begins the process of pruning off weak branches and dead fruit. Withered in surrender it felt as though his hands dug me up from the sandy soil of my world, pulling apart my balled up roots and planted me in organic soil, rich in his love dead center in the garden for all too see.
It’s Not Easy to Say “I’m all in”
It’s not easy saying, “God I’m all in. I surrender every part of my life to you. My story, relationships, my family, my words, my actions, my past and my soul–it’s yours, have your way in me.” Because when you do, the words of Ephesians 5:1-17 become your reality. Roots exposed, branches pruned, he sheds light on what is not worthy of living within us because He is making his home in us. He opens up our soul to his good and perfect gifts and weeds out the dirty and broken things.
But that’s the beauty of being set apart. Life becomes a story with a climactic ending so spectacular, people you encounter in the everyday can’t help but sample a page and taste the fruit of your life. People can’t help but wonder what holiness means. Others can’t help but want Christ to shine on them.
To Pray that Prayer
But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. This is why it is said:
“Wake up, sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”
Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. Ephesians 5:13-17.
Do you want to be a life poured out, a life set apart–a life worthy of a legacy? Do you want others to watch and say, “That is so…GOD!” Then pray this prayer with me but I caution you, it’s not the for weak or the half hearted because prayers like this will uproot your life for Him to work in ways you cannot imagine. It’s painful to let go of the old ways and wobbly to walk in the new as he guides every step.
“Father God, I’m all in. I want to lead a life set apart, worthy of your will. God have your way in my life, make me holy. I surrender all, everything. I’m ALL in. Lord, I know my life is worth nothing unless you’re in it, so please take it and make it a story that reflects your amazing creativity and your power. Let my life reflect you in all I do. Amen.”